twin twin twin

waking up in the morning. have nothing to do. aaahhh.. its really not good staying at home without housemate. most importantly she is praisca.. ahahaha.. i guess we are really like a twin.. cant be separated. LOL. 

last night, me, ciki and kiki dropped praisca and cynthia at perth international airport. they went back to indonesia.. envy them so much, but yeah. i cant do anything either. it was my mistake, saying no. im alright staying in perth alone. so here is the consequence. HOME ALONE. 

i was so lazy to wake up this morning. it was 6 a.m. and i decided to continue sleeping.. 10.30 a.m. my bb rang. kinda weird, there is no one in this house. so silent while i had my breakfast.. anyway, i could turn on the music loudly.. ahahhahhahaa.. thats the good thing and i can keep my house clean too.. HORE..

what should i do today?? despite the fact, i got to drop kiki to the airport tonight. he is going back indo too.. perth sepiii.. well, thanks God for this holiday. i believe it would be so freakin fun with everything i could experience with.. 

LOVE

home alone

py was going back to jakarta for barely a month..

nyeaaahhh.. i miss her so much...

cynthia too..

im stuck in perth alone...

something new.

i dont even know should i begin something new? something that i have no idea of what im looking for. or i know, but i pretend that i dont. is there any reason why i have to keep on waiting? im looking for it, im searching and figuring it out. i found what? NOTHING. used to say, 'hey, why you have to play hard with someone who is hard to get?' but in reality, i did. have been missing so many people who could be mine for someone who doesnt fight for me (in case he fought, never saw it). 

i dont want to lose another people in my life. so i'll fly away. if we are meant to be, we'll be together somehow. i keep you on my radar. 

25/01/2011

AUSTRALIAN DAY 

and

I FOUND YOU

i say free

free...

freedom :) :)

at last, from the long journey of final battle in college life. im done with my last 4 units in diploma. i am pretty much sure i'll get a good score for management and CIB which i thought would be the worst. while, accounting 201 and BIS were so damn SUCKS.. i could not do it very well, even for accounting 201, im just hoping i would ONLY pass the unit. cant expect for distinction, even credit seems not possible. God, please help me for this unit. i dont want to fail and disappoint my parent. i surrender to you, God.

i've done my best, let Your will be done.

post-pone

hallo here, hallo there.

almost 3 a.m. just now and i miss blogging :)

i felt sorry for the reason that i couldnt post anything lately. i was kinda busy with my friends; hanging out, going to the church, playing at markas dora and crabbing as well..

14 january 2011 was fenfen 20th birthday, we made some surprises for her.. im goin to share it later when i got free time. actually im on my final exam preparation. i gotta put more effort to these 4 subjects so that at least i could get D and make my parent proud of me! dying for it to be honest.

wish me luck everyone =*

xooxo

never

i never ask them to love me.
i never expect that all the boys would like me.
i never want to be the most wanted and popular girl in the entire 'world'.

i just want someone who is more than deserve me.
someone who will fight for me and the other way around.
im afraid of falling in love.
of course!
im sick of relationship!

what if, the one i love, doesnt love me at all?
what if, the one i love, would not fight for me?
what if, the one i love, just plays with me. like the way i DID with the other boys.

is this what people say karma? 

girls night out

totally great. one night, two days with fenfen and cynthia.. 11 - 12 january 2011..

this was our last saturday plan actually to have a sleepover at markas 3 dora. it suddenly canceled since cynthia got to work. so sad, yet was fun. we began our 'agenda' with making martabak terang bulan. it was not that success. well, at least the last one was pretty much better. while fenfen was going with ko yobi, pastur and garry, at the same time ciki and kiki left for work, the only people remained were me and cynthia. nothing to do, wondering about perfect relationship and i actually listened to her conversation with her dad. otherwise i would fall asleep.. LOL

since i felt very hungry and wanted to eat so many types of food, we asked mamet to come along with us. ended-up at makan-makan restaurant, vic park, we ordered 3 teh tarik and 1 portion of kwetiau. yummy, it tasted better than the one which is sold at city. when the night came, we became wilder. in a good way i could say. we played card and uno until the moon was tired to smile. LOL.. whats best from that night was we had a little 'komsel'. we sang and pray for each other. something that was not planned yet blessing. hence, watching dvd, shutter, with the two girls, mamet, ciki and kiki made them stayed at dora till 3 a.m. i guess if kiki's parent didnt call, we wont move from our 'convy' spot. huahahhaha.. wait, it didnt stop there, the girls still got a lot of things to do until the sun rises beautifully. 

january

it always begins with january. the first.

my new year eve was totally awesome. i had my whole family around. bbq dinner and late family chat accompanied with fireworks. yes it was simple, but i love it so much. i felt home. another 2 days with them have successfully made me sick. sick of leaving indonesia. :(

flying back to perth with garry and praisca. it was the hardest part. no, i didnt cry. yes, im ready because of both of them. 4 hours in the air, without proper sleep was kinda distracting. doodling (sort of game i addict to) and listening to the music were my friends. i MISS them so so much!!!

refreshing before all the routine habits begin. fremantle is our destination :D
quite a stressful week for me, i got my CIB presentation due on and accounting test. yet i havent felt like studying. still in the holiday fever. *syalalalala*

i told you what!
weekend is my new best friend. i feel relief and less stress. thanks God.

it only takes me one day, ONE FINE DAY,
to change my mind.

im not interested in you, actually.

another chapter of my life

yes, i accomplished my 2010 pretty well, i hope. 
my resolutions were kinda success --> thanks God :) 
and let this brand new blog be my fresh chapter of my life, 2011.. 


unfortunately, im not that excited to make a new blog, like i used to. but when it comes to my mind, its quite 'be pitied' that i wont engrave those memories. in case i lost my mind somehow. 

I tried to think of a logical solution that could explain what I had just seen — 

a solution that excluded the assumption that I was insane.