#random

really wanna go back to indonesia.

i feel really tired for those random stuffs.
semester and studies!
people who have a huge ego!

oh come on people, you've grown up already.
i tried to give my best, why dont u?
it wasnt me who step back, its just you who made a great wall.
dont u know?

day full of smiles,
full of laughters,
and experiences.

but,
theres a big, even HUGE problem
that about to happen

be strong,
and
keep fighting

because,
through God nothing is impossible

be strong in God

photographer: praisca yudianto

and the love grows

ketika badai datang menghadang, 

kubu pertahanan sudah diperkokoh 

 saat keluarga tidak mendukung, 

kami percaya Tuhan buka jalan

 ketika jiwa dan emosi lemah, 

dukungan selalu melengkapi

 bahkan saat teman terbaik menjadi jauh, 

selalu ada jalan yang menyatukan kami kembali

 dan saat kami sadar, banyak percobaan di depan sana,

kami percaya tidak ada yang mustahil bagi-Nya

i wondered why?

WHY?
why my mom never believe i DO STUDY everyday?
why my mom always think i spend most of my time JUST for playing?
why oh why?
I HAVE
push my effort to give my best!
I DO
everything just to make them proud!
BUT
i need my own time, doing something that i love,
something that could relax my mind.
HAVE BEEN
studying - full studied for the last 2 weeks
to pay off the time where i could have fun with my brother
SO NOW
let me have fun first
I DONT MIND
if i have to stay awake till dawn,
just to do my assignment

i know im a child, i realise i dont really know whats best for me. but i know how to handle my life

SEMANGAT 

p.s.: thanks for the first 1 month, it does mean a lot to me.

for all your support and kindness.

for everything you've done to me.

i dont care what people might say

i just love you 

the way it should be

time of my life

i miss you 

         i miss you

                  i do!!!

every single time we've been through. all the happiest and saddest part. we've been there... 

why did all of them change? just because i have 'someone'.?? never intended to leave you alone, with all of your busy things. never intended to be with my boy only.. i do mean it! yet, as soon as i try to be closer with you, theres always some kind of 'wall' beside us. you keep on silent, im afraid to start conversation. weirdo stuffs happen between us. i miss everything about us!! 

sorry to write this through blog. hope you understand and be strong :) everytime you need me, just go straight and talk to me. i try my best to be the old Talitha.. 

dont you know?

i MISS you

more than i could express it girl!

sorry to disappoint you lately. 

really dont mean it 

tekat bulat tertanggal 15 maret 2011

saya akan mengecilkan pipi :)

HAPPY FIRST MONTHS

ADRIAN PRANATA AGUSCIK

give our worries to God 

things change a lot

guess 24/7 is not enough.

to study
   to play
     to socialise 
         to be with the one i love

i really need to study hard this semester.. had no background both in accounting and law has made me going crazy each time i have tutorial classes. especially law. gosh, seems like im the stupidest person in the world. my first two weeks have made me depress. i was really down, i cried a lot, and my mood changes all of sudden. 

i have no intention to be exclusive with my bf. but right now, he's always beside me, he knows more than any other people do. so only to him i could lean on :* i cant share these problems to my friends who still have to fight for their studies. it wont solve any problem, despite makes them down as well. 

thats why, things change a lot. and i do miss them!

hello here, hello there

it has been exactly one month, i havent posted anything yet.

yes, it was due to one main reason, laziness syndrome ;]

while holiday, i was to excited till had no time to open blogger.
whilst school, didnt have enough time to post entries.
and now i guess, cant skip it anymore. hihihi...

HELLO HERE

HELLO THERE

MY LIFE HAS BEGUN! 

prustasssiiiiii

frustrated!!!
berat badan tidak turun-turun..
mauny apa sih?? aduh aduhhh
><

for this time,

i'll fight for US.

we're gonna make this through !

yes, WE CAN. 

its paid off

HOREEEEE


i passed my freakin crazy stressing diploma.. 
for the second trimester, ive accomplished 4 units with 1 HD and 3 D.. 
its more than enough, well i expected more to be honest. 


i thank You Lord for everything You've given to me.
for Your guidance, for Your blessing, for You light.
EVERYTHING


now, i should be encouraged to be better in uni life. 
because i know everything is paid off in His time.

i love you Jesus

missing her so bad

couldnt think whats better than having a great friend like her =)

i have lose one of my childhood friend for the stupid reason i ever knew. 

but i know, God loves me so much. would never leave me in a crucial situation. 

He sent me a friend like praisca. has been more than 3 years we've been building up our friendship. continuously with up-and-down, troubles-and-surprises, sad-and-happy. we made it so far, and would never stop *i hope*.

yes, it hurts when we had clash, when i had to leave her alone at our house, when i could be so enjoy with new people while she couldnt, when i could forget my pass and start something new while she stuck with her past. 

i hope she'll do fine with her life right now, move forward and forget her past. i dont want to see her getting hurt again and again. *it was my fault anyway, should not make them get closer*. 

in this new year, 2011. 

i wish we would have a better and better friendship, supporting each other no matter what. and be a twin sistah =)) 

you'll be fine my dear. GBU

one day, one fine day, he would know that im not a little girl anymore.

pork party

6 February 2011

hahahahahaha... couldnt find any other suitable title for this post. PORK PARTY =)) had a bbq and most of them were pork.. well, there were also some chicken and beef. but wasnt that many. there were only me, fenfen, ko yobi, ciki, garry, mamet, ko oki and pastor shiva. it was great i could say. we have prepared for the sate, brownies, es buah and other yummy foods.. hihihi.. it was a lie if you said you were not full.. gosh, i cant barely breath.. ahahhahaa.. *lebay mode*. 

P.S.: so lazy to blog anyway :)

CNY

first time chinese new year without my family. no angpao =(

i spent almost my whole day at city. visited one shop to another. bought some accessories. well, that was pretty much what i did until met mamet. he was playing game while i did shopping =) again, klabing, didnt know where to go and what should we do. we looked up for PC, polaroid, pengharum ruangan, shirt and celana bahan.. it was almost 1 p.m. and ciki has finished work. having lunch at chiliz, only mamet though. ciki only ate bread that i brought from home. hmmm. what else.. i could only say that all the things that we did were just klabing :x

night was pretty much special, since ciki brought me to a chinese new year dinner. ahhahaa.. quite silly i guess,  but at least i got something to do, and something to remember for this year CNY. thank youuuuu :D 

our red envelope  

cooking day

so here is it. our plan to be a chef :)

ciki picked me at around 11 a.m. and went to curtin. gotta get the dora's key there. after calling mamet for million times, he answered by saying i was asleep. *jeger, katany mau pergi jam 10*. fine, shopping those ingredients at coles vic park and kong, the asian store nearby. bought some tofu, toge, daun bawang, carrot, srikaya jam, meses, chicken, curry, and i forgot what else =)

cooking time. it took us almost like 3 hours standing at the kitchen, cutting, copping, frying, and all those stuffs. it was fun though. i could learn how to cook :) the chicken curry was a bit failed, mamet pour to much water on it. so it didnt really taste like japanese curry.. the 'gorengan' were totally success, we got tahu isi, martabak and bakwan daging.. and yeah, mamet said we're gonna make a gorengan restaurant, since thats what we were master on. LOL..

it has been 5 o'clock and mamet gotta go for work. we finished all the gorengan and sit for a while, waiting for fenfen to come.. aaaaaaa.. finally, sit *pheewww* it didnt stop there. after fenfen came, and looked at the curry. we decided to go to coles again, bought the curry, along with cooking oil and chilli sauce. *yeay yeay*

ciki went home, he got to be with his family for chinese new year dinner. me and fenfen, continued to cook - recook the curry and made the regal. it was success.. all good, all taste delicious. yummy yummy yummy =)) as it was almost 8 p.m. and all of the people were coming to dora, we fried all the tahu isi and martabak.. and tadaaa, done at 9 p.m.

time to eat :)

I MISS PRAISCA YUDIANTO.

DONT FEEL LIKE IM HOME

chocolate day

second day of holiday :)

we - me and koko, went for a 'picnic'. i dont know what should it be called. bought some chocolates from coles, and went to matilda bay. i thought its good, but yeah, we ended up at skipping it.. hihiihi.. drove along the way and the direction lead us to stop at kings park. despite the hot weather, we could spent like almost our 'daylight' there until i felt 'freeze'. 

our unplanned 'picnic' continued to vic park. bought CUPS, at last.. it wasnt that good as i thought. yeah, nothing can be compared with SS.. hihihi.. we felt very bery fuullll.. full of sweetener. *hoeeeee* but well, i was so happy.. 

undeniable happy - the term i used to describe early 2011 - 

after mamet finished with his works, we picked him up at cannington train station and went to caro (a japanese restaurant next to fast edies). only him who ate. had a little bit serious chat about his boss until the waitress said that the restaurant has closed. moved out to MCD (again and again. yesterday and two days ago). here was it, the peak of the day. we laugh all night long, mamet told lots of funny story.. and i couldnt resist to stop laughing.. ahahha... *perut keram perut keram*.. and AGAIN, the waitress said the restaurant was closed already, so we got to finished this.. *phew*

I LOVE YESTERDAY

twin twin twin

waking up in the morning. have nothing to do. aaahhh.. its really not good staying at home without housemate. most importantly she is praisca.. ahahaha.. i guess we are really like a twin.. cant be separated. LOL. 

last night, me, ciki and kiki dropped praisca and cynthia at perth international airport. they went back to indonesia.. envy them so much, but yeah. i cant do anything either. it was my mistake, saying no. im alright staying in perth alone. so here is the consequence. HOME ALONE. 

i was so lazy to wake up this morning. it was 6 a.m. and i decided to continue sleeping.. 10.30 a.m. my bb rang. kinda weird, there is no one in this house. so silent while i had my breakfast.. anyway, i could turn on the music loudly.. ahahhahhahaa.. thats the good thing and i can keep my house clean too.. HORE..

what should i do today?? despite the fact, i got to drop kiki to the airport tonight. he is going back indo too.. perth sepiii.. well, thanks God for this holiday. i believe it would be so freakin fun with everything i could experience with.. 

LOVE

home alone

py was going back to jakarta for barely a month..

nyeaaahhh.. i miss her so much...

cynthia too..

im stuck in perth alone...

something new.

i dont even know should i begin something new? something that i have no idea of what im looking for. or i know, but i pretend that i dont. is there any reason why i have to keep on waiting? im looking for it, im searching and figuring it out. i found what? NOTHING. used to say, 'hey, why you have to play hard with someone who is hard to get?' but in reality, i did. have been missing so many people who could be mine for someone who doesnt fight for me (in case he fought, never saw it). 

i dont want to lose another people in my life. so i'll fly away. if we are meant to be, we'll be together somehow. i keep you on my radar. 

25/01/2011

AUSTRALIAN DAY 

and

I FOUND YOU

i say free

free...

freedom :) :)

at last, from the long journey of final battle in college life. im done with my last 4 units in diploma. i am pretty much sure i'll get a good score for management and CIB which i thought would be the worst. while, accounting 201 and BIS were so damn SUCKS.. i could not do it very well, even for accounting 201, im just hoping i would ONLY pass the unit. cant expect for distinction, even credit seems not possible. God, please help me for this unit. i dont want to fail and disappoint my parent. i surrender to you, God.

i've done my best, let Your will be done.

post-pone

hallo here, hallo there.

almost 3 a.m. just now and i miss blogging :)

i felt sorry for the reason that i couldnt post anything lately. i was kinda busy with my friends; hanging out, going to the church, playing at markas dora and crabbing as well..

14 january 2011 was fenfen 20th birthday, we made some surprises for her.. im goin to share it later when i got free time. actually im on my final exam preparation. i gotta put more effort to these 4 subjects so that at least i could get D and make my parent proud of me! dying for it to be honest.

wish me luck everyone =*

xooxo

never

i never ask them to love me.
i never expect that all the boys would like me.
i never want to be the most wanted and popular girl in the entire 'world'.

i just want someone who is more than deserve me.
someone who will fight for me and the other way around.
im afraid of falling in love.
of course!
im sick of relationship!

what if, the one i love, doesnt love me at all?
what if, the one i love, would not fight for me?
what if, the one i love, just plays with me. like the way i DID with the other boys.

is this what people say karma?